Saturday is my Wednesday...

Only two more days of work and then I get a day off...so pumped. This week was fine...actually, it was pretty great. I got enough sleep most days and I don't think I even cried once. Next week might be slightly crazy, but what would life be if it wasn't crazy sometimes?

• Today I'm going to sleep for 8 hours/cuddle with Calvin.
• Today I'm going to clean the litter box out, again. Seriously, I'm done cleaning that shit hole out...but I love Calv, so whateve. 
• Today I'm going to read White Teeth by Zadie Smith
• Today I'm going to make something for dinner. Something fancy. 
• Today I'm going to do laundry. 
• Today I'm going to drink a gallon of water. 
• Today I'm going to go visit my grandparents. 
• Today I'm going to make a sched of my next week so that I can stop stressing about it. 
• Today I'm going to have a pajama day...pretty much like every other day of my life. ha
• Today I'm going to listen to good music whilst I clean (maybe minus the cleaning part)...

I have the coolest sibs on earth, right? 

Happy November!

Happy November, everyone. 

Hope it's a great month for all. I sure hope it's a super month for me, too.

I'm looking forward to

Thanksgiving,

basketball,

and cozy days watching the snow from inside the warmth of my house. 

my big "phat" gratitude list.

Ya know when you're just feelin' blue? Well, I got some good advice to make a list of all the things I'm grateful for right now. I don't wanna lose it, so you get to read it too! Here we go...

Joey Bear @ the football game!

• Joey Buffalo Ganster Decker (yes, GanSter)...He is simply amazing. He is the football manager for CHS and travel to American Fork to support them tonight. I wish I could have been there to cheer Joey on. When the football team was doing their fundraiser (selling coupon cards) and they didn't give Joey any to sell he felt left out so they gave him a few. By the end of the few days they were selling Joey had sold over 30 cards--beating everyone on the team. Joey is the most dedicated and the loving guy in the world. Thanks for showing me what it's like to put your whole heart into the things you do, Joey. I love you!

•  My home. I love living there and I'm so lucky to have such kind landlords. Furreal, best thing ever. 
• Sobriety. Even though sometimes I'm a little betch about it, I know I wouldn't have any of the people and things in my life that I do right now. I'm very grateful for the gift that I've been given.
• On that note, I'm grateful for the Horizon House for even allowing me to come there and to deal with all my shiz. The staff there are amazing. Thank you, thank you. I can't say it enough. 
• My fam. We don't always get along and sometimes I wish things were different but I always know they'll be there for me and for that I'm very grateful. I love you guys. 
• My sponsor. She's amazing and I love her. 
• My friends. I love you all dearly. Thanks for being here for me and for not giving up on me.
• My job. I'm very grateful that I work for awesome people. I love the owners/ manager. Seriously, thanks for giving me a job back even after everything. 
• lots more but I think this is good for now...right??

Go big or go home..

I'm going to Texas for my birthday weekend! OMG! I just purchased my plane tickets and I'm ready. Too bad I have to wait 2 weeks! Oh well, it'll give me time to prepare for all the madness. I cannot wait!

 Here's what I get to do:

• I get to Jenna! I haven't seen her in over a year so it'll be sweet to catch up and get to spend time with her.

• Go to an AA convention. First ever! (for me, anyway). I'm stoked!

• See what Texas is all about! I've heard plenty of good things about this place...but now I get to find out for myself. I haven't traveled outside of Utah, Nevada, Arizona, California since...2004. It's about damn time I start seeing the world! One state at a time...

I can't wait! yay! Bring on new adventures!

movin' on up...and out

I get to go see my new apartment in the morning. I am stoked! I am going to live alone- for the first time ever. No parents. No sibs. No roomies. No girlfriends.

No one but me.

Needless to say, it's a big step for me. I couldn't be happier about this move and I'm so grateful that the landlords are freaking amazing. Like for real, nicest people...ever! Plus, I don't have to sign a lease or anything. I am pretty lucky to be able to rent from them--thanks to lots of people who helped me get into this place.

That's another thing. Ya know, I've always had a lot of supportive people and lots of people who would do anything to help me and I always took advantage of them. Now that I'm actually working for things and trying to do life on my own, things have been going really well and people have been very generous and have helped me with anything they could. I'm very grateful for everything I have and for all the amazing people in my life! Even my bad days are not bad at all..I've got a great life and I'm very blessed.

Now for the important stuff...like how I'll decorate it..and with what. I don't really have any furniture. And by that I mean I have nothing but a bed. Ha ha. Don't worry, I have a few ideas [thanks to pinterest.com]:

I'll make these someday of cities I've been to...or wanna go to...

I didn't find this on pinterest but I love it! Great [cheap] idea!

Since I can't paint, the walls might look a little something like this...perhaps.

I love this table. I'm gonna make it and it will double as my kitchen/coffee table. Classy, right?

So pretty much I will have a fancy house and I couldn't be more excited! Oh and any donations of junk you don't want will be gladly accepted. :]

a happy list

• Seeing Joey dance to MJ....perhaps the greatest thing on earth. I'll post a video sometime. It's worth viewing, trust me. 
• Fake baking. I love it. I'm still white and I'm okay with it; I just pretend I'm on a nice warm beach for the 20 minute sessions.
• The fact that I'm going apartment shopping today. Yay. Can't wait. 
• I have been sober for 80+ days...I get my 90 day chip on Friday!
• I have a job. Two, actually.
• It's raining and I love rain. I bought an umbrella today for the occasion. 
• I got to see Annie B. for like 20 minutes and I loved every second of it.
• Riding my bike to work. [coming back home is a whole different story...]
• My brothers dog, Ava. She's cute.
• Corinne and Lily for making me smile everyday. Bear & Cade, too. :]
• Jack, my iPod. <3
• Crafting with Joey.
• Drinking fresh Dew. Mmmmm
• Thinking of decorating my apartment and how I'll do it. Sooo excited.
• Peeing in a cup a couple times a week. For all the awkwardness and fond memories that I make whilst doing so...Thank you, HHW.

Life is good. Different...and great.

itchin to...

• get another tattoo- i have a few way cute ones picked out. yay.

• get my nose pierced- again. i loved having it and i'm excited to get it back! watch out world. 

• dye my hair black- again. the blond has got to go! can't wait.