New Blog

So, I think the time has come that I will no longer be posting on this blog. I like blogging and I will continue elsewhere. This blog has been with me for a while now and it has some happy memories; I just think it's time for a fresh start.

If you want my new blog address you can leave a comment or get contact me however you like.

no good, rotten, piece of shit day...

Yesterday can kiss my ass.

I went to bed miserable and woke up still clinging on to any part of it I could. I wanted to have a horrible day today. I tried so hard.

And then I decided to get out of bed and shower around 1pm. Best decision I've made in a long time. I met up with my sponsor and talked with her for a bit. Good thing she's the most kind and understanding person out there because I have been a bitch lately. After meeting with her, I still felt a little bit blah-ish but I got to hang out with Joey and of course he just makes everything else seem so silly. He's the best brother a girl could ask for and I'm lucky to have him in my life.

As we were driving home from dinner Joey started laughing uncontrollably and said, "oops, I farted". Although I was quite disgusted, I couldn't help but laugh because he thought it was so funny. I love that kid so much.

Oh, and what's with everyone thinking I need to date? Am I that un-awesome that I shouldn't be without someone else? Dating is cool and all, but I donno why it's been such a hot topic lately....Maybe people really are worried that I'm becoming an old hermit-cat-lady....

Today I'm grateful:

• my catz ;)
• Joey D. 
• that I get to go watch Joey play basketball tonight
• for a day off work....
• my sponsor for putting up with my awkwardness and being so loving. and everything else. she's just amazing.
• that even though i didn't get to go running, i got to shovel. that's a pretty okay workout, right?
• that i got to hang out with Joey Bear today.
• HeyTell....i need a smart phone.
• my group didn't kill me last night. i was a rancid bitch. i guess i get to make amends next week. 
• that i get to decide how i act....sometimes i just choose the wrong way...ha ha
• to be sober! 
• for friends who care about me and want what's best for me.
• for my family
• loveeeeee. maybe i do need to date. shit man....
• i have a car to drive, food to eat, and a warm house to sleep in all day. 

Here's to having a good attitude tomorrow and making it a great day! Peace and love...

My Life Soundtrack: Updated

Do you have a life soundtrack? I do. I've had it for a few years and every so often, I love a song enough to add it to the playlist. Today I finally deleted a few songs that I feel no longer have a place in my life and added some, too. Although there is no particular order at this time, I think that maybe someday I'll put them in an order that goes along with my life...for now, here they are:

• Nobody Knows Me At All by The Weepies:

This could be my life song all by itself, so naturally it's on my life soundtrack. I love this song and have played it millions of times, I'm sure. "I don't give a damn, I'm happy as a clam".

• Mint Car by The Cure:

There are no words for how happy this song makes me feel. I hear it and can't help but smile. I have so many good memories connected with this song and so many wonderful people that it makes me think of when I hear it playing. This will be a lifer on my list, I'm sure. Once upon a time I wanted it to be my wedding song...I wasn't even dating anyone. Now I just want it to be my life theme song! Screw weddings. ha 

• She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5:

I have the acoustic version on my life soundtrack. I'm not sure why, but since the first time I heard this song I just fell in love. I almost took it off my list, but decided that I could keep it for now. Maybe someday I'll take it off, but for now it'll stay. 

• There She Goes by Sixpence None the Richer

I have no clue why I love this song. Well, I do...It just makes me happy. I like having a crush; this song reminds me of such...

• Such Great Heights by The Postal Service

I just love it. Reminds me of happy times and good people. 

• Someday You Will Be Loved by Death  Cab for Cutie

Whenever I break up with someone, I put this song on replay. For weeks. I figure that since I seem to break up an awful lot, this should be part of my soundtrack. It's a really good song, too. 

• You Wouldn't Like Me by Tegan and Sara

Sometimes I don't like myself. Sometimes I just love Teg and Sar. 

• Hysteric by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs

I love everything about this song. I could listen to this song on repeat for months...oh wait, I have. 

• Brighter Than Sunshine by Auqalung 

This is from one of my all-time favorite movies, A Lot Like Love. Don't judge, it's a good movie and I love this song. I guess it gives me hope that someday I'll fall in love. Maybe? 

• Bad Poetry by Ben Lee

I used to sing this to Jordan and since she's kind of a big part of who I am today, I figured it should be on my list. I don't know how long or for what reasons it will stay, but for now, I just really love it. It reminds me of when we were happy together and in love. 

• Alligator by Tegan and Sara

<3 Story of my life. 

• Gamble Everything For Love by Ben Lee

Because I do? I donno, I just love this song. 

• The Believer by Neil Young

I dedicate this to myself sometimes when I'm feeling like a depressed little betch. It works, so I keep it. : ) I could listen to this all day.